Lynn is going to kill me. No, I’m serious. If Lynn M. Bunch reads this Blog, I might lose my job, because I’m going to coin a new term in this essay, and it’s going to really, really, truly, and seriously annoy one of my favorite teachers of all time.
Before I met Lynn, I was mess. After meeting Lynn, I’m still a mess, but only by my former standards. What I know see is a mind that spins, a body that I often ignore in order to feed my mind, and a soul that loves both, and wishes that I would too.
I think a lot. Thinking isn’t a problem. It is how one thinks and what they do based on thoughts that can be problematic. Prior to taking all of the Intuitive Development (ID) courses, I spent almost all of my time thinking, but without purpose or a plan, and I therefore suffered and feared a lot. Now that I have an ID Blueprint, I still think, but differently, and I am humbled and fulfilled by this tremendous change.
I call this “intuitive thinking,” and you may want to re-read that first paragraph now.
“Intuitive thinking” means using intuition before and after you have thoughts that seem important. When my mind starts to spin, which is not something I can really control, I must realize that I only control my reaction to “spin.” My ID blueprint has every tool I need to defeat a mental spin, so now that I use it, instead of staring at it like an unopened birthday gift, I’m spinning less and “intuitively thinking” more.
According to ID philosophy, which I support and use, I’m a “leader,” meaning that I often do not check in with my intuition, preferring instead to listen to foolish, ego-driven ambitions that often work against my soul’s desire for peace and progress. The opposite of a “leader” is a “follower.” Their issue is mine in reverse; go figure.
Because I’m a leader, when I get “the mental spins” I feel obsessively driven towards problem solving, but these thoughts of how to solve the problem, and the thoughts about the problem itself, are actually at the root of “struggle” and “fear.
My life isn’t getting better, on paper. I still have financial and relationship woes, and even my woes recently called to say they have woes. The difference is that I am not struggling or fearing “woes,” because I no longer see them as “woes.” They are necessary obstacles for my soul to overcome. I have replaced my panic button with ID tools that I use to ground myself before succumbing to pain, struggle, and fear. I am now less reactive to emotions and mental spin than I ever dreamed I could be.
I’m not “there” yet (I doubt there is a “there” to reach), but I do know what progress feels like, so thanks to “intuitive thinking,” I now think creatively and positively about how to enhance my ability to love others and myself, and of equal importance, I now constantly use my intuition, instead of idiotically “following my leader.”